bring me joy.

I want to be a happy person.
I want some one to smile because they saw my face or heard my name.
I want to make some one else happy.
I want a chocolate fountain.
I want the love to go around and come around.
I want joy.
I want to bring joy.
I want my green beans.
I want to be beautiful.
I want you to think i'm beautiful.
I want to be a happy person.
I want to run away to Ireland.
I want to be surrounded by the green.
I want us to be happy and forget about all the pain.
I want to listen to Damien Rice.
I want to drown in his voice.
I want to fly away.
I want to be a happy person.

Goodnight.

untitled...

merry (late) christmas.

(happy birthday mama!)

Ummmm...

I think I might be insane.

Out Of It.

Took my little sister to her school today at like 5:30 to "decorate cookies".
So much fun...me, a bunch of parents, and a bunch of kids.
Sitting there, listening to my music, just watching.
Little girl on her wheelies or heelies slides by, in her high school musical t-shirt.
A mom snaps her fingers continually at her child. She's not an animal lady!
I sit there eating my decorated cookie.
Totally out of it.
No one here know's me.And I don't know anyone.
People stare at me.Is there something wrong with me?
No one wants me here.
I drink hot cider, it's not very good.
It's raining outside.
And they are playing a sad excuse for Christmas music.
Little kids running everywhere, yelling loudly.
As i just sit.
I was kind of cold.
Wanted to come home and talk to you.
Just sat there...alone.

Goodnight.

Too much to ask?

I just want a simple life.
Thats it.
Nothing more.Nothing less.
A simple life without the drama.
The hate.
The pain.
Juts love.
My love.
Simple.
Simply beautiful.
Just a smile.
A kiss.
A happy soul.

Wonderfully simple.

Loss of Soul Loss of Blood.

Once the razor sharpness sinks into your skin,
It's all a daze.
Everything is silver and shining.
You go into a dream-like state.
The excruciating pain hurts so much,
That it begans to to feel good.
Every mouthful of blood,
Warms his throat, his lips, his heart.
Every drop makes him think it beats again.
So he drinks more.
As you enter your blissful state.
Going further, drowning deeper.
Seeing your soul slowly slipping away.
Dripping into him, giving him dead life.
But you can't stop him.
You wouldn't stop him, even though you know you should.
Because you're flying, slipping.
This is your ecstasy, as well as his.
The loss of soul, the loss of blood.
You groan of pleasure in unison.
You give everything up,
With no second thought.
He takes it all with a smile.
Your heart beats s l o w e r.
But you can't help smiling either.
Your soul is beautiful.
It captivates you.
You watch it slither gracefully away from you.
Silver and shining.
Fluid and breathtaking.
Freezing cold and burning hot.
The most perfect soul,
Gone to waste.
But you can't bring yourself to care.
Your loss of soul, your loss of blood.
Doesn't concern you.
Your too high up,
In paradise, feeling passion.
Love and hate.
Tenderness and roughness, all at the same time.
The ultimate experience.
The blood draining.
Drop by drop.
Flowing freely,
He's never had it this good.
You're the best.
You're his favorite.
It's all so overwhelming,
Yet not enough.
You two cannot be satisfied.
Nothing will fulfil your desires.
He begans to pull away,
You pull him back.
This is so good, so unfamiliar.
His heart experiences something.
Just as yours falters,
His gets a beat,
Yours skips one.
The silver's coming to an end.
Your flying,
Flying in the glowing miracle.
That is no longer yours.
The razor sharpness leaves your skin,
And you feel nothing.

Your visions black,
Your hearts not beating.
The pain starts coming,
And you start screaming.
A loss of soul.
A loss of blood.

Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant

Probably the most productive weekend I've had in a while, which is sad cuz I didn't even do too much.

Saturday went and watched the Vampire's Assistant with my sisters.Surprisingly it was a hella good movie.You know if your into all that vampire, mystical-world crap.haha.But I am so it's all good.But it's awesome either way.But ya, so you should also know that Chris Massoglia is really sexy, you should check him out.But ya, then afterwards we just go some In-n-Out.Hella good as always.

Sunday(toady) went driving, pretty fun.Just chilling, eating hella chocolate, and "doing" my homework.haha.

Movies I wanna see: Sherlock Homles, Alice in Wonderland, The Lovely Bones, the Avatar, Brothers, etc.

Goodnight.

Where the Wild Things Are.

Possibly the cutest movie I have ever seen.

This was the most awesomest movie ever.

And does it make me a petifile if I think Max Records is really cute?

I don't think it does...only 3 years difference.haha.Just kidding.

But no, you should all watch it.

10 billion stars.haha.

Goodbye.

Damien Rice.

Okay, so in case you didn't know already I am obsessed with Irish men.haha.They are absolutely the best.Sooooo beautiful.But yes, in particular Damien Rice.He is not only gorgeous, mysterious, IRISH, and beautiful, but he is also a singer.Which is really really hot, not to sound like a stupid groupie.But his voice is so:Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...In short it makes you melt.haha.How gay does that sound?But ya, it's really beautiful.So ya, I thought that those of you who didn't know who this man is, now do.And can enjoy him as well.

Check out:

9 Crimes

Cheers Darlin'

Volcano

Women Like a Man

The Blower's Daughter

Delicate

I Remember

And much more...

Goodnight.

No Such Luck.

So, I'm at the public library right now.And I am really bored.The whole reason I came here isn't even here.Apparently nothing has Microsoft Publisher.How gay is that?Guess I'm gonna have to loose hella credit for not having it on that.Whatever, doesn't even matter.Got some hella awesome movies that I've been wanting to watch for hella long.So thats cool.But ya, man you looked amazing today.And you know who you are.Ahhhhhh, sigh.But ya, I'm bout to go and eat, so ya.

Have a good day. :)

Immature People.

Boys are so immature.haha.
They are guided by the opposite of their brains.
I think you all know what I mean.
It's about time a gentleman came along.
How about you and I go back in time?
When women were treated like ladies, and not disposable shit.
Does that sound good?
I think it does, though we all love bad boys...Do we not?

Goodbye.

A Day for the Books.

The day started out okay and way too hot as usual.Came home and then went to watch Fame.And for the first time I felt happy.And I mean happy and hyper for pretty much the first time.A record, so remember this.

Diana, A---, and I were driving home with the music blasting, the windows down, and the wind blowing.It felt sooooo delicious.I think it was the first time I've felt happy in a really really long time.Then we went to the pool around 8:00.Was in the jacuzzi, on the floaty, staring at the stars.Really beautiful.Overall a good day.By the way "Hi" to you.haha.How about we say more than Hi?Maybe one day. :)

Have a goodnight everyone.

Look Inside.

Peel me apart,
layer by layer.
Shed the skin,
shed the bone,
shed the blood.
Let what you love remain.
Peel me apart.
Until you find what you want,
until you find what you like.
Dissect the words that I speak.
Keep only the ones,
that are sweet to your ears.
Peel me apart.
See what you like.

Is there anything left?
Or have I expired?

Something New?

Anyone feel like a change of scenery?

Well, that makes two of us.Lets run away to Ireland together...Don't I wish.
Life is a blur of the same thing over and over again.
Nothing is distinct anymore, nothing separate.
Everything is so similar, it's far far to familiar.
Can't wait to get out of high school...

P.S. I think...I'm over you.haha.About time, right?
Goodbye.

Shooting Lately?

Went to the shooting range today.The outside one.haha.Hella fun.Shot like six rounds more than five times.Much better than the inside shooting range.Anyone who has never shot, should certainly go.Right now.haha.I like Revolvers.

Back Home...

So, we just returned from Las Vegas.
It was pretty fun.haha.Missed my friends hella though.
But ya it was like freakin' 105 degrees all the time or more.That was loads of fun. :)
So anyways, watched G.I. Joe: Rise of the Cobra too.
Went to the: Eiffel Tower, Wax Museum, Titanic Exhibit, Bodies Museum, and a bunch of other stuff.
Walked around for like basically 5 or more hours each day/night.
Hella tired...My legs burned.haha.
Hotel: Treasure Island.Cool hotel rooms.
Hella homework...lots of fun.
10 hour drive both ways...hella beautiful though.
Overall a fun break from everything else.

Gotta go and finish my gay homework now.haha.
Hope everyone has a goodnight. :)

Happy Birthday Diana!

Hey Diana,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Your finally 19!Woo-hoo!haha.
I hope that you have a super awesome day.And that you get everything you want.
I love you, girl.

Today:Went to the mall.
Went to Cold Stone.
Went to Red Lobster.
Saw Megan.haha.
But ya, gonna leave hella early tomorrow.Goodbye.

School, School, and more School.

School...sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.It's alright,I guess.I was happy to see everyone again.Hella tried though, and it's just the first week.haha.Not the absolute best classes, but not the worst either.First to get off the bus.Total gayness.haha.But ya, it was good to see you.Though all this nonsense needs to stop.I gotta forget you.But ya, it was hella hot on the bus yesterday...not fun. :(

You whisper too loudly.
I think I'm going deaf.

I can't hear your screams.
And who's fault is that?

You said that you loved me.
Sorry, I never learned to read lips.

You write it on paper.
Pardon me, I can't read.

You act out your feelings.
I pretend I can't see.


I'm gonna go and be bored and eat...
Have a good day.

The Time Traveler's Wife.

The Time Traveler's Wife: super super sad but super super good.haha.Did more than usual this last week.Went shopping a couple of times.Went to the movies.Got a haircut.Went to the library.Party at Megan's.Pretty good weekend.Man school started today.Bus didn't come.Barely made it on time.But it was alright.Missed everyone, so that was nice, seeing everybody.But ya, anyways the last couple of weeks I've been watching a lot of movies.Here are some of them:

I Am Legend
S.Darko
Resident Evil: Extinction
Marley and Me
27 Dresses
Mamma Mia!
No Country for Old Men
The Black Dahlia
The Ruins
Beowulf
Untraceable
The Tracy Fragments
Bella
Defiantly, Maybe
Stardust
The Spiral Staircase
Ghost Rider
Vantage Point
Shooter
And a bunch of others.

Well, lets hope I don't miss the bus tomorrow.haha.
Goodnight.

Sightings...

In the last couple of days I have seen lots of people.
Went shopping today:A--- knocked over a shelf in Pac Sun.haha.Hella funny.Nothing else really new.Bout to start school in less than 5 days.ughhhhh.Only have one class with Megan.The school staff must not like me.Never put me in classes with my friends.sighhh.Whatever.I'm bout to get a hair cut on Saturday and then hopefully go to a party at Megan's...hopefully.But ya, still thinking of you.Haven't seen you in forever, but your still on my mind...sadly.
Anyways Diana and I hella want to watch The Time Traveler's Wife.But ya.

Goodnight.

Red Lobster

Pretty good day.Tiring though.Went shopping at Concord and Vacaville.Gonna go to our mall later.Than went to Red Lobster with the whole family.Good bread, good food.haha.But ya, I miss my friends, school is in less than 9 days, and I am not really that ready.I'm not looking forward to homework and drama and crap.But the people ya, well most of them anyways.But ya, I gotta go and do nothing.Goodbye.

Goodnight.

Cillian Murphy.

Here is my new famous-man crush.haha.He played in Red Eye and bunch of other movies.He is incredibly handsome.Those blue eyes.Ahhhhh.And those freakin' cheek bones.Gosh!Soooooooooo beautiful.But yes, here is a look.

My Sweetest Friend.

Hurt

I hurt myself today,
To see if I still feel,
I focused on the pain,
The only thing that's real,

The needle tears a hole,
The old familiar sting,
Try to kill it all the way,
But I remember everything,

(Chorus)
What have I become,
My sweetest friend,
Everyone I know,
Goes away in the end,

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

I wear this crown of thorns,
Upon my liars chair,
Full of broken thoughts,
I cannot repair,

Beneath the stains of time,
The feelings disappear,
You are someone else,
I am still right here,

(Chorus)
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt,
I will let you down,
I will make you hurt,

If I could start again,
A million miles away,
I will keep myself,
I would find a way...

Johnny Cash

Forgotten.

You sit there smoking your weed.
Getting high,

As high as can be.

While life walks by.
Forgetting that it forgot you.
While everyone you love and loves you,
turns their backs,
on what they don't want to see.

Which screws your "life" over more than it needs to be.

You sit there smoking your weed.
Getting high,

As high as can be.

While life races by.
Forgetting that it forgot you.
Now there is no one you love and that loves you.
They no longer turn their backs;
for they do not know you.

You sit there smoking your weed.
Getting high,

As high as can be.


While life dies away.
Forgetting that it forgot you.

Harry Potter

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.Pretty good movie.Seems they just keep getting better and better.haha.Though Goblet of Fire is still my favorite.But ya...anyways my cousins left a couple of days ago...so nothing to do again.I hella miss my friends, can't wait to see them again.Man I went swimming everyday for the whole week.Hot ass week if I do say so my self.haha.But ya, I'd also say I got pretty tan.lol.And ate hella junk food.lol.I should really stop. :)

But ya...I still miss you.Though you don't know who you are.Ahhhhh.Sigh.
Anyways I cannot wait till New Moon comes out.Midnight showing.Woo-hoo!!!First ones in the theater again.haha.I also wanna watch 2012, Sherlock Holmes, G.I. Joe, The Time Traveler's Wife, The Ugly Truth, and a thousand more.lol.But ya, I'm gonna go and chill (like always.haha.)

More Later.
Have a great Saturday.

Marine World

Yesterday my sister,aunt,cousin, and I went to Marine World.It was pretty cool.Haven't been there in a while.It was fun to just relax and actually go out.Even though my legs and feet got hella tired.Maybe Chucks aren't the best shoes to wear when your gonna be walking for a long time.haha.Then we went to Cold Stone.Hella good.lol.Then went and chilled in the jacuzzi.Fun day.haha.About time though.But ya anyways I still miss my friends a lot.And I just saw some kids from school today at the pool.I kinda can't wait for school to start.I just don't wanna wake up early.But who does?haha.Well I gotta go and eat some watermelon.
Goodbye.

Handsome Fellas.

Here are some good looking fellas for you all to gaze upon.Keep in mind that I missed some.haha.Enjoy. :)

Hmmmm.....

So, really bored right now, as usual.haha.And Diana won't shut up. :)
Anyways, hella miss my friends...should start hanging out with them.haha.But ya, I'm always looking very not-how-you-look-when-you-go-out.lol.I always go to sleep at like 4 or 5 and wake up at like 1 or 2.So the day is overrr by the time I wake up.haha.And Diana still won't shut up.I've watched a bunch of movies...at home.Well, I'm gonna go roam online and do nothing as usual.Ohhhh...and Happy (super late) 4th of July.lol.

Goodnight.

My Sister's Keeper.

So, the other day my sister's and I went to watch My Sister's Keeper.A great movie, though extremely sad.One of the saddest movies I've seen in a while.Had In-n-Out the next day...Today my little cousins came over and we went swimming...three times.Pretty fun, I guess, kinda tiring though.Well yes, I don't know what else to say for know...

I Miss You.

Man, who'd thought life could be so absolutely boring?
I did.

Nothing new here, no surprise.Oh, ya, some gay allergies, that I don't even know if their allergies.My eyes itch like a female dog.Anyways, I miss my friends and I miss having to do something.BORED,BORING,BOREDOM.That's how summer is going.Not even a month in, man I need to do something.Whatever, I guess I'm gonna go and read or something.Goodbye.


I hope everyone has a wonderful evening.

Movies

This week has been okay.I suppose.So anyways, I watched a bunchhhhhhhhhhhhh of movies.haha.Let's see:

-Wanted
-The Spirit
-Atonement
-Ratatouille(attempted to.haha).
-Juno
-Valkyrie
-Apocalypto
-The International
-Gran Torino

They were all pretty good.Some were hella sad, some hella funny and other crap. Lots and lots of cussing in pretty much all of them.haha.Good movies(most of them).

Wanted: What the fuck have you done lately?

Happy Birthday Papa!
Goodbye and goodnight.

With a Little Bit of Gold and a Pager.

Today was pretty good.Went out with the sisters.haha.Shopped a little, got some delicious In-n-Out. :)
Heckaaaaaaaaaaa good.Ya, anyways summer break is pretty good, so far.But let's hope it gets better.I miss all my friends.haha.Can't wait till My Sister's Keeper and Harry Potter come out. :)
I wanna see hella movies...what else is new?haha.

For first time hyena feeders...
Haha.


Have a swell day everyone.

Summertime

Well, it's finally summer.About time, right? :) :(

These words,
My words...they're stuck.

I wish they'd flow freely:
Like a river.
But they're stopped:
Like by a dam.

My heart abides,
But my mouth protests.

I want you to drown in my river,
I want you to drown in my pain.

I want you to feel,
What I've felt.


As the river gently takes you away.

Please Stop.

How am I supposed to stop wanting you if your always there, always around?

Please just stop...

I'll figure if he doesn't love me,
I'll say that I don't love him either.

I'll act like I don't care what he says,
Or what he does.

I'll pretend that his words make no difference,
And that he is of no importance.

Even though every time I'd see him,
My heart would break a little more,
I'd get a little sadder,
I'd cry a little harder.

I'd figure if he doesn't love me,
Then I wouldn't have to say how I felt.

Goodnight.

Happy Birthday Megan!

Hey Megan,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.Man I hope that you have a super awesome day, sorry for dropping your half-eaten cake.lol.But ya, I hope that you get everything your little heart desires. :) And I love love love you sooooo much.Your the awesomest.

P.S. I like your cacks.haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy Birthday Sierra!

Hey Sierra,
whenever you read this, which will probably be in like two months, since you never go on.haha.But ya I just wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!(again).And I hope that today will be awesome for you.Your great and I love you...


HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Outlooks on Life.

I suppose you could call me an optimistic pessimest.

I tend to look at things negatively most of the time.Not on purpose, that's just how I am.As if I don't want to get my hopes up.Because I know they will get crushed.In a way it's good, cuz then I could be prepared for the bad news or whatever it is.But other times it's just annoying and depressing.But I do have those random days when I think most anything can happen, but those are rare.But when they do occur they are pretty nice.

People that are super super happy all the time are depressing.And emo people are depressing.So where's the middle?But ya, anyways just to say overall I don't have the brightest outlook at the end of the day. :)

Goodnight.

Leave Me Alone.

I have had a dream about you practically every night this week.And it's great but it also sucks a**.I don't want to dream about you anymore or think of you anymore.I just want to forget you.So please leave me alone.Oh, wait you know what makes this whole situation so much more pathetic and stupid.It's that you don't even know that I feel this way.How gay is that?You barely talk to me, your always with all those hoes and maybe that's better, because you are jerk(most of the time).And I shouldn't care about you, or care that you don't care.Whatever."Love" is gay and stupid.Oh, wait I don't know how to "like" or "love".Screw it all.Life is sucking right now.

I give my regards to all the Swine Flu victims.
Oh, and another update: Miss Megan has lost the previously stated bet.

A Nice Day, Mostly

So today was pretty cool.I didn't have testing.So I just chilled with my friends in the gym for like two hours.haha.We had hella fun: played BS, yelled alot, and ate a lot of food, etc.lol.It was fun.Then when I got home Diana and I went and walked around and picked Alex up from school.Took hella pictures.haha.But ya, tomorrow I have my hardest test.Ewwwwww.Hope I don't fail.But whatever.So ya, anyways here are some pics of me and my besties.lol.

Star Tests and Dreams.

So tomorrow I am going to take my first Star Test out of many.And let me tell you it is guarented(however you spell that) to SUCK.Three hours, no food, and total extreme bordem.The absoulte most fun ever, right?Anyways let's at least hope I do okay.Fingers crossed or whatever your supposed to say in these situations.

So anyways this weekend I went and saw Seventeen Again with my sisters.haha.It was pretty good and funny.Zac Efron looked so absoultley beautiful.lol.And I watched Transformers again.Love that movie too. :)
And I went to the library as well.I LOVE that place.haha.I could be there for hours and hours.I sound like a loser,huh?Whatever, who cares.And I went to Costco.Haven't been there in literally years.Not joking.Like that place too.Who doesn't like free food?

Anyways I had two great dreams last night.They were both wonderful.But one of them was so great, and it's not supposed to be great, because the person in it is a jerk.But I was so happy he was in it.Ahhhhh,sigh.Why does life have to be sooo complicated?Why can't we just live in our dreams?Don't we all wish, most of the time at least.

Well I gots to go to sleep now, even though I won't fall asleep for like another two hours. :(


Good Night.

Emotionless.

I am emotionless.I have no feelings.Or at least that is what it feels like half of the time.Like I know when I'm supposed to feel sad and happy and angry and stuff.I can feel happy and angry easily.But sadness and love and all that crap is so hard.I know when some dies or something really bad occurs I should feel sad.And I do, but mostly only because I know your supposed to be sad in that type of situation.I suck at Love.I can do and feel like and "lust" but not love.Never love.I never loved and I doubt I ever will.Sucks, huh?And I don't think I'm loveable.haha.But ya,aside from joy and anger I don't know how to feel.I don't know how to express my "feelings" or talk about them.I don't like to talk about them or share them and maybe that's really weird, but I don't know.And I can't comfort people or I don't know how to.I can try, but it doesn't always work.But ya anyways, just thought that that is something you guys should know.That I am emotionless loser.haha.School is tomorrow.Dang it.I hate school.Goodbye.

Hope you all have a good evening.

Doctors Visit

When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
What if I'm not thirsty?

I FEEL LIKE CRAP.


Spring break hasn't been the best.But whatever, better than being in school.Even though the first day of break I got sick.And it sucks.Then my little sister got sick too.And then today I went to the freakin' doctor's and got three freakin' shots in one arm.It is completely dead.And then I got blood sucked out of the other one.It was an super fun day.Man, I just miss my friends.haha.Already.I need to go hang out with them.Ahhhhhh, I can't wait till Wolverine and Harry Potter come out.

I am soooooooooooooooooooo absolutely bored.bored.bored.I want something to happen.Man, whatever, not like it's gonna.

I HATE being sick.It SUCKS.haha


Have a good evening everyone.

spring Freakin' break

Finallllllly.haha.

I am so completely exhausted.Of school and people at school and homework and teachers.lol.But I will miss Janie,Megan,Sierra,and Monica bunches.haha.Well I have to go chill.haha.


Hope everyone has a good Easter! :)

Something about Me.

50 Random Questions

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?

where I am now

2. Who are you in love with?

Nobody

3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?

I don't believe I have

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yes

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?

last week

6. Are you wearing socks right now?

nope

7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?

no, no car

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?

long time ago

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?

no

10. Are you hot?

weather wise-yes

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?

mineral water

12. What are you wearing right now?

blue hoodie black sweats

13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?

neither

14. Last food that you ate?

cupcake

15. Where were you last week at this time?

same place as now

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?

nope

17. When is the last time you ran?

monday

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?

football game

19. What is your favorite animal?

Black Panther

20. Your dream vacation?

Ireland

21. Last person's house you were in?

mine

22. Worst injury you've ever had?

a burn on my thigh

23. Have you been in love?

nope

24. Do you miss anyone right now?

yes

25. Last play you saw?

never saw one

26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?

confidence

27. What are your plans for tonight?

nothing, eat

28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?

don't have one

29. Next trip you are going to take?

I dunno

30. Ever go to camp?

once

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?

yep

32. What do you want to know about the future?

if there is one

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?

nope

34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?

yea

35. Where is your best friend?

at home

36. How is your best friend?

good, I think

37. Do you have a tan?

yes

38. What are you listening to right now?

T.V.

39. Do you collect anything?

no

40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?

too many to name

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?

never

42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?

duh!

43. What does your last text message say?

don't have a cell

44. Do you like hot sauce?

yea

45. Last time you took a shower?

last night

46. Do you need to do laundry?

yep

47. What is your heritage?

Russian

48. Are you someone's best friend?

I think

49. Are you rich?

nope

50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?

sleeping

Auto Insurance

Top Ten List - Best Myspace Quizzes

Jesus Walks

"If you can't convince them, confuse them."
-Harry S. Truman

An awesome quote.So today was interseting.Well not really.Same old same old.But the bus ride home was extremely hilarious.haha.But ya, besides that it was okay.I'm really liking paddle tennis.It's pretty fun, our best unit yet.haha.So the bet is still on, and there still is no winner.I have a feeling no one is going to lose soon.haha.Well, anyways I'm just crazy tired and have nothing to do, except draw three freakin portraits, and I'm not very good at drawing.Can't wait.lol.

Yo, We at war,
We at war with terrorism, racism, and most of all we at war with ourselves.

God show me the way because the Devil trying to break me down,
The only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now,
And I don't think there is nothing I can do now to right my wrongs,
I want to talk to God but I'm afraid because we ain't spoke in so long.

Kayne West-Jesus Walks.

A Nice Road to Nowhere.

Sometimes I feel like I'm on a road to No Where.Like no matter what choices I make it won't matter.It's always going to be the same and stay the same.And it's not necessarily bad, just repition, which sometimes can become aggravating.But whatever, we can't all have perfect lives, and always do whatever we want.Don't we wish.But anyways I just feel like nothing is ever going to happen.

Gosh!Life sucks, doesn't it?haha.Not to be a downer on anyone. :)



Romeo & Juliet Prologue:

Two households both alike in dignity,
In fair Verona, where we lay our sence,
From ancient grudge break to new mutiny,
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
From forth the fatal loins of these two foes,
A pair of star-crossed lovers take their life:
Whose misadventured piteous overthrows
Do with their death bury their parents' stirfe.
The fearful passage of their death-marked love,
And the continuance of their parent's rage,
Which, but their children's end, naught could remove,
Is now the two hours traffic of our stage;
The which if you with patient ears attend,
What here shall miss, our toil shall strive to mend.


Romeo and Juliet: a pretty good book.I'd make some changes if it were up to me.But it's not, so ya.Well, it did manage to become one of the best classics, so that's pretty good.haha.Anyways it's one of those tragic love tales, what else is new?But ya...


Night Everyone.
More Later.

Actually did Something

I believe this would be one of the first weekends in a long time that I actually did something everyday.haha.Let's see on Friday I went and watched Monsters vs. Aliens in iMax 3-D.It was pretty cool my little sister really wanted to see it.Then on Saturday my mom, sister, and I went to the mall and shopped around.And we got In'n Out(however you spell that).It was really good.haha.And finally today my mom and I went to the mall again, and went to the eye place, and got my eye's checked and a new perscription.Turns out my sight got twice as bad.haha.Kinda sucks, but it's all good I suppose.Then we went home and chilled for a while, then around 6 something my sister and I went and watched A Haunting in Conneticut.

It was really good, and sad, and scary, and horribly tragic.And that it was based on a true stroy made it even worse and sadder.Anyways like the whole plotline is pretty much brilliant and yet outrageously terrifying and heartbreaking.But over all it was scary so I guess it accompished it's goal.

Anyways on a lighter note: I have stupid school tomorrow, and stupid spring break needs to come already.haha.Oh, ya no one has lost the previously stated bet...yet. :)


Good Night.

A Day In.A Day Out.

So, these past two days have been pretty cool.My cousins came over, and we haven't seen them in a while.So that was fun.haha.On Monday went to the mall, and shopped around.Then we went to Mimi's Cafe and ate some good food.I got so full it wasn't even funny.haha.Then somewhere around eight we went to the jacuzz(i don't know how to spell that).It felt delicous.haha.And then we just watched Twilight :) and ate popsicles.The next day we just ate a bunch of food, played cards, watched T.V.(Repo...woo-hoo!) and took a bunch of pictures.haha.It was tiring but fun.lol.

Anyways, in other news school is okay, P.E. sucks, and I'm tired and ready for summer.haha.But ya, Lost and ANTM are on tonight.Yessss!lol.Oh, ya anyways Megan, Sierra, and I made a little bet.And oh my gosh it involves money.GASP.haha.So, basically we are trying to see who can go the longest without having a boyfriend.lol.


So, winner gets:
*Freshmen year- $1.00
*Sophmore year- $2.00
*Junior year- $3.00
*Senior year- $10.00
But maybe we should make it higher.haha.jk.

Have a good day everyone.

I really don't know what to feel.

It's an odd mixture.Sadness and joy.Anger and happiness.I don't know what to feel, one minute I'm happy and I feel free-spirited, so to speak.Then the next I'm sad or aggravated.I don't know maybe there is something wrong with me or the stuff around me.Sometimes I just want leave somewhere and start over.Not that I'm not happy or anything.It's just that I guess I want something to happen, something to change.I dunno.Whatever I guess, not like anything is gonna happen.haha.Man, school is almost over and I can't wait till summer.And then I can finally get away from all the stupid people at school, and all the retarded unneeded(however you spell that) talk.People just talk way too much.Not saying I don't talk or anything.But some people need to learn how to shut up.haha.Not to be mean.But I will miss my friends.But I need to get away from that crap for a while.

Anyways, I don't really have anything else to say, that you haven't heard at least.haha.But ya, so I guess I'll show you another one of my "famous person" crushes.haha.Here he is, Mr. Hayden Christensen. :)

Long Time, No Write

I haven't written in a while.haha.Wish I had something interesting to tell, but sorry to disappoint, as usual.haha.Anywho the weather has been much better lately.That's an up.But I am already tired (of the week & in general).That's a downnnnnn.lol.Ohhh, ya it's Saint Patrick's Day.woo-hoo!(sarcasam).Be sure to wear green.Anyways I'm reading this good book called Evermore, it's part of the new series The Immortals.It's pretty cool.haha.And I still have to finish Eclipse, Sunshine, and Wuthering Heights.haha.As you can see I tend to procrastinate. :)
So make sure you're not like me.lol.Anyways I don't really have anything else to say, except that I'm tired.haha.


I hope everyone has a good evening.
Goodbye.

Better Days

Well, the rain went away.That's good, still kinda chilly, but better.Anyways, today I felt better, not as in better from being sick(well that too) but better as in happier.That spelling looks wrong, whatever.I dunno just something better, more care-free maybe.Or maybe I'm finally not caring about what people think.Regardless, I like it much more.

Aside from coming home, the bus ride home is the highlight of my day.Fun, huh?haha.But I do have fun with Janie, Megan, and Johnny.Even though some people won't close the freakin window.Gosh(you know who are, no need to name name's, haha).But ya, good times.I had two cookies at lunch, they were really good.Anyways I watched some more movies over the weekend: Zoom, Just Friends, Step Up(love that movie), and a couple others that I can't remember right now.haha.Sorry.

Ohhh...I really want to watch Watchmen, and the new Harry Potter film.haha.They look really good.Well, I gotta go do homework, and eat, and stuff.Bye.


Have a good evening everyone.

Rain, Rain, Go Away.

The weather sucks.It's hot and sunny.Then freaking cold and windy.It's extremely annoying.And I felt like crap all day.A headache, stuffed nose, sore throat, and the worssssssssst coughing.It sucked.I had two cough attacks in class, and I felt like everyone was staring.haha.My German teacher gave me a a bottle of water and some mints...so nice of her.Anyways,there was almost a fight today.Some people get so defensive and retarded.Like why are you gonna throw something at a girl, be hella rude, then start yelling at a guy that tries to defend her.Like learn some freakin' manners and grow up, seriously.

Anyways in other news Mr. German is irratating me.Like why are you gonna ignore me one day and then the next day randomly talk to me through the whole day.I really don't get that.But whatever he's just an aggravating jerk.Ugggghhh.Whatever I need to forget.

Here is a picture of my beautiful famous crush.haha.Is he not gorgoues??? :)

More Later.

Streak of Sadness.

I watched a lot of sad movies these past two weeks.Not in the theaters or anything.But they were all good and sad.I saw Deja Vu, Crash, Black Hawk Down, Sybil, Hancock, and some others that I can't remember.Each one made me sadder.Well, I saw Grease too.Not a sad movie, so thats good.I should watch more comedy's.haha.I'm starting to reread Wuthering Heights.It's good, you guys should read it.Well, it's also sad.Great, I should stay away from sad things.haha.

Some people just aggravate me.Why do I always have to be all smiley and loud for people to think I'm not in a bad mood?Just cuz I'm not prancing around singing show toons doesn't mean I'm mad.Just cuz I'm not cheezin' like crazy doesn't mean I'm sad or depressed.Gosh.Have you ever thought that maybe I don't want to be there.Or I just don't like you.Or your annyoing.Or something else is on my freakin' mind.But whatever some people are just irratating like that.haha.

Anywho's, on a lighter note, today was alright, I guess.Even though I do long for a hand to hold.Or get a hug sometimes.But it's all good, I suppose.Sigh.What the FREAK is "love"?Can someone please tell me.haha.More Later.


Have a Good Evening.

Valentine's Day.

It was pretty good.Got a new computer desk and moniter.They look sooo much better.Can't wait till we get our bookcase.haha.

I guess "love" was in air, as they say.Two ask-outs occured within a two-day period.Congrats to both.haha.Another three-day weekend.I might go watch Taken today.It looks really good.haha.Man I don't wanna go to school.sigh.Oh, well.

More later.

Push/Coraline 3-D

Both pretty good movies.Not much new.Three-day weekend.School tomorrow.Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiggghhh.Had some weird dreams this weekend.My sister went to the doctors for like the millionth time today.Let's hope nothing's wrong.51st Grammy's.Coldplay got 4 awards.woo-hoo!


More later.

Good Morning

Beautiful.

This weekend was absolutly wonderful.The weather was brilliant.The perfect weather if I do say so my self.haha.I finally watched Defiance.It was wonderful.I watched it with my whole family.Then we went to Blue Frog.It was a great day.You guys should watch Defiance, it was sad and hilarious.But mostly sad.But great.It had everything.War, action, comedy, romance.and much more.Wonderful, tragic movie.I recommend it.haha.Then today I went over to Janie's house.It was cool.It was nice to just chill with her.Her dogs love me so much.lol.jk.They are cute and look so scared.Yet try to be territorial at the same time.It is hilarious.haha.

Tomorrow we shall dance.Yes, sadly, it is not as classy and shopistacated(however you spell that) as it sounds.lol.But whatever.We cant make it sound cool.Even though it will be far from it.lol.Well, I hope everyone else's weekend was good too.Ohhhhh.I also read a LOT.haha.That's good.I still need to read like about a hundred thousand classics and stuff.haha.Well good night everyone... :)


More later.

I have to say, it was an O.K. day.

Today was alright.(Does alright have 2 L's?I don't think sooo.haha).Anyways, last night I had a pretty cool dream, weird but cool.lol.And the day was a.o.kay. even though it went by kind of slowly.Cracked up with Ms. Miranda on the bus.Not loudly at all(heavy sarcasam.lol).Everyone was kinda staring, but whatever who cares.And we played that one stupid Knots game.Hilarious.Anything can make us laugh.haha.Tried some pretty delicous chocolate-type cake.Good cream, very good cream.But my CPH buddy wasn't here today(L.R.S.)Won't say the name, case the person don't want to be mentioned.lol.

Now I'm sitting at home, writing, obviously.Avoiding doing my homework.PROCRASTINATING(however you spell that).That's probably one of my biggest problems.I pro-long basically every project and essay.But I still somehow manage to get an A or a B.haha.I should really stop.Well anyways, I should go do my homework,so then I can watch Lost.haha.It's pretty good show.You should check it out sometime.Well then, more later.


Books I like:
Twilight Series
Pride and Predjudce
Of Mice and Men
Blue Bloods Series
Bloodline books
Wuthering Heights
Darkangel Trilogy
As Simple as Snow
The Boy Who Couldn't Die
Lord of The Flies
My Heartbeat

And thousands more...............................More later(for real this time.haha).