I have to say, it was an O.K. day.

Today was alright.(Does alright have 2 L's?I don't think sooo.haha).Anyways, last night I had a pretty cool dream, weird but cool.lol.And the day was a.o.kay. even though it went by kind of slowly.Cracked up with Ms. Miranda on the bus.Not loudly at all(heavy sarcasam.lol).Everyone was kinda staring, but whatever who cares.And we played that one stupid Knots game.Hilarious.Anything can make us laugh.haha.Tried some pretty delicous chocolate-type cake.Good cream, very good cream.But my CPH buddy wasn't here today(L.R.S.)Won't say the name, case the person don't want to be mentioned.lol.

Now I'm sitting at home, writing, obviously.Avoiding doing my homework.PROCRASTINATING(however you spell that).That's probably one of my biggest problems.I pro-long basically every project and essay.But I still somehow manage to get an A or a B.haha.I should really stop.Well anyways, I should go do my homework,so then I can watch Lost.haha.It's pretty good show.You should check it out sometime.Well then, more later.


Books I like:
Twilight Series
Pride and Predjudce
Of Mice and Men
Blue Bloods Series
Bloodline books
Wuthering Heights
Darkangel Trilogy
As Simple as Snow
The Boy Who Couldn't Die
Lord of The Flies
My Heartbeat

And thousands more...............................More later(for real this time.haha).

whats the FREAKIN' point?

Why does everyone even bother?What is the point of anything?Have you ever asked your self that?I have, more than once.Pretty much on a daliy basis.Honestly, why do we all do what we're told?We are all like robots told what to do, what to learn, how to learn, how to speak.We are taught to be what we aren't.And we are all so gullible and stupid, because we believe all that we're told, believe who we are when it's all a lie.Everything is planned, everyone obey's.And yet, there must be a reason why we all try.Why we all get up in morning, why we put up with idiodic athourity, school, work, and just plain retarded crap.Why?Why?Why?


Sometimes I feel like there is something wrong with me, for thinking that way.But maybe I'm not the only one.I don't know.Hopefully one day I find something that has a point, a reason (besides my family, good friends, reading, music, and writing).Haha.Maybe one day.More later.


Have a good evening.

Stop Walking.Start Talking.

Can you quit walking back and forth from spot to spot?Making me look at you everytime.I see you two or three times a day.I suppose that's enough.Hopefully one day we'll stop and talk.Maybe about the weather or some other useless topic.Or maybe we won't.


Today I sold A-------- a free half-eaten muffin for ten dollars.She must have really wanted a muffin.I suppose she'll be asking for that money back soon.More Later.

Walk With Me

Went shopping.Saw some movies.Read.Watched T.V.Cleaned.Not much more.

Walk With Me

A man, beneath lower class, walked. Walked. Alone. Walked. Walked. Walked. For who knows how long, just simply walking. Every path, every curve, road, hill, street. He just walked. And never had his lips come close to a frown. And never did his legs become sore, or his throat ache for water, or his body fall restlessly to the floor. Never had he wished for something more.

This man was not only fulfilled is mind and body, but also soul. He needed nothing but another road to travel. Nothing but another place to go. Everything he wanted he had. Everything he needed he had. Himself and the road.

Once he asked another for a dollar. The other looked at him and gave him ten. Then the man walked back around the corner and handed the ten to the young girl on the curb. Feeling that she, unlike him was not fulfilled. Feeling that this is what needed to be done. The girl smiled and said thank you. He said no need to thank, the money was meant for you. Then he walked away. Along the road. Hoping her life would not soon be through.

This man was as mannered as a king, as wise as a scholar, as kind as a friend. And yet he was none. He could rise above others or sink to their level, without knowing what power he had. He walked with a grace that no lonely man ever could have. He spoke with such intelligence and calm that it seemed unreal. He embodied the being that we all wanted to be. He was just a man walking down the street. Walking. Walking. Walking. Alone.

By Lina

More later.

Tired and Tired.

I woke up exhausted.Every single morning I get up, I'm extremely tired.Maybe I shouldn't go to school, then I wouldn't have to wake up at 5:30 in the morning.But I wouldn't skip, cuz then you have to do make-up work.And that sucks, big time.I hate make-up work and being behind.Maybe I shouldn't go to sleep at 11 or 12 at night.Maybe I should go to sleep at 9:00 or something, but then I wouldn't be able to fall asleep regardless.But whatever.Who cares, right?

Anyways..................

Today I witnessed: a boy hurt a girl and him not apologize. The girl forgave him.People trying to waltz.My feet while I waltzed.Laughter.Smiles.Pain.Sadness.Anger.Chocolate chip cookies.German videos.The sky.The grass.Love.Hate.Music.Faces.Too too many faces.Big yellow bus, with big black wheels.Computer screen.My family.Stuffed noodle shell, with meat and sauce.Good.And much more.

P.E. sucked.I hate running.More later.

Quotes.

Quotes I like.Thought that I'd share some with you.

"Most people are other people.Their thoughts are someone else's opinions.Their lives mimicry.Their passions a quotation."

"Let no foot mark your ground.Let no hand hold you down."

"Him who I love, I must let free, even if that means from me."

"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today."
-James Dean.

"People are in your life for a reason, a season, a lifetime."
-Reverend Run.

"Language has created the word 'loneliness' to express the pain of being alone, and the word 'solitude' to express the glory of being alone."
-Paul Tillich.

"Never apologize.Never explain."

"Illusions succeed to the degree the subject wishes to be fooled."

"Don't make somebody a priority if they only make you an option."


Thats just some quotes that I like.Hope you enjoyed them.There are thousands more.haha.Today was okay.I saw a guy on a motorcycle crash.More later.

Not Too Much.

Ever listened to Coldplay's lyrics?I have.They're all great and most are sad.Just take a few minutes to listen to a song.Nothing much happened today.Went to school, had a boring time, except on the bus after school.Thanks Janie and Megan.lol.It was hot today, compared to every other day.Then Diana and I went to a couple of thrift stores.And everyone stared at us like we were gonna steal something.Like come on, honestly?But whatever.Then we went to Zumiez.How ever you spell that.lol.She bought a snowboarding coat.And ya, then we went home, and I did some of my homework.And ate pizza.And now I'm doing this.Fun, huh?I don't want to do the rest of my homework...So I won't.Man, everything is still the same.And the mall was sooo empty.It was hilarious.haha.But ya, I really want to see the movie Defiance.It looks so good and sad.But seriously, just take some time to watch the trailer, and you'll love it.I think it will be extremely good.

Today, I discovered something about someone on the bus.And it wasn't a good discovery.haha.I think Janie and Brian know what I'm talking about.lol.But ya, well let's hope tomorrow will be better.More later.

Some for You.

I thought that I would let you guys read some of my poems.They aren't great or anything.But ya, the only other person that has ever read my stuff is my sister.She says it's good, but I think she's just trying to be nice.lol.Here you go:

Thoughts flow freely,
To quick to catch.

But beautiful nonetheless.

Soundless, endless.
Just managing to slip our fingertips.
An infinity of restless blurs.
Floating from one place to another.
Constantly occuping a space, yet never still.

Thoughts flow freely,
To quick to catch.

But beautiful nonetheless.


These rules I make to live my life.
Lessen the pain.
And strengthen the might.

Stop this problem.
And avoid that fight.

Ask this question.
And brighten that light.

These rules I make to live my life.
Loosen this bond.
And make another one tight.

Replace my vision.
And enchance my sight.

Do everything wrong
Then find out it's right.

Be really small.
Then stand at a new height.

These are the rules I make to live my life.
And it still never seems to come out right.


I'm slightly in love with you.
Even though you don't care.

I slightly understand why you lie to me.
Even though that doesn't make it okay.

Your slightly appealing to watch.
Even though I could have a much better view.

I'm slightly sad your with her.
Even though I don't know why.

Your slightly considerate.
Even though you don't try.

She's slightly jealous of me.
Even though she has no reason to be.


Take the pain of the beholder's heart.

Now you hold the beholder's pain.

So you hold the pain of your heart, given to you by the beholder.

Now, the beholder has no pain, yet they have a heart.

So you took the pain of the beholder's heart...
You took your pain away.


Accessing the surface of somebody else's mind.Dreaming of the things you want, but will never find.Wondering what goes on beneath all those twisted lies.Wanting to figure out if it's a huge surprise.Accessing the surface of somebody else's mind.Hoping truth, not lies is what you find.

Hope you guys liked those.More later.

Poetry.

If
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream -- and not make dreams your master;
If you can think -- and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings -- nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run --
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And -- which is more -- you'll be a Man, my son!

Rudyard Kipling.


Poetry is such a beautiful thing.And for me it's necessary, in a way.I feel like poetry is the only way that I can say what I feel without actually saying it.Since I don't really talk about my emotions with anyone.Not even my sister.Ya, we skim the surface: happy, sad, angry.Oh, I like so and so, oh I dislike so and so.But not much more.And it is my fault, and only my fault.I think I have a trust issue or something.Or I build barriers and walls to keeps people away.And it's like I forgot how to knock those walls back down.Even if I wanted to break them down, I can't.It's like I can't remember how.I feel like on some days I'm like a robot, becuase I feel nothing, and then other days emotions are just racing through my head.It's confusing and annyoing, and it makes me feel, like no one else feels this way.But poetry is so releasing, I guess.I can write what ever I what.About the future, the past, the present.What I wish will happen, what happened, and what will never happen.It's like nothing else matters.But my pen and paper.I love reading poetry too.Sometimes it's the only thing that I can connect to.Sometimes it's the only thing that makes me feel happy.But bottom line I really love Poetry.It's awesome.

Some poets I like:

Robert Frost
Emily Dickinson
Langston Huges
William Shakesphere
Pablo Neruda
Sylvia Plath
Rudyard Kipling
William Blake
Amanda Cook

And much much more I can't remember.More later.

Love you Janie.

I would say all the things you aready said, but you said them, so there's no point.lol.You know I love you too.And your great.haha.

J-LCM+AVR= to much too count.lol.

Similar.

Today was hideously similar to every other day of my life.Same.Same.Same.A change would be nice.I don't ask for much out of my life, just a change.For the better.More exicting maybe.Repetition is becoming extremely aggravating.My life's not boring to the extreme, but it could be better.I want to wake up in the morning knowing that something will happen, something good.But that might be even to much to ask for.So i'll hope for a small, minor change.

Yesterday I was looking at different blogs and I found an extremely interesting one.It was writtin by some one that I see at school now and again.But don't really talk to.It was great, he wrote wonderfully.He seems so intellegent and wanting something more.I think that we think in similar ways.Thats probably why I liked it so much.He has a way with words, so to speak.Reading his blog made my day.Even though it was sad, it was also great.But I doubt that he wants pity.But nonetheless,I enjoyed his blog a lot.

Happy Birthday Pepe!

Artists

Artists that I like:
Muse,Coldplay,Placebo,Dashboard Confessional,Death Cab for Cutie ,Red Hot Chilli Peppers,Kanye West ,Damien Rice ,Rise Against! ,Bass Hunter ,Bayside ,Blue October ,Breaking Benjamen,Lykke Li ,Cake ,My Chemical Romance ,Christina Aguilera ,The Cranberries ,The Cranes,Evanescence ,YELLE ,A Fine Frenzy ,Goo Goo Dolls ,Frou Frou ,The Fray ,Green Day,Hawthorn Heights ,Hellogoodbye ,Hinder ,Hot Chip ,Hot Hot Heat ,Howie Day ,Jack's Mannequin,James Blunt ,Jason Marz ,3OH!3 ,Jimmy Eat World ,Justin Nozuka ,Kasabian ,The Killers,The Kooks ,Linkin Park ,M. Wardasis ,Maroon 5 ,Matchbox Twenty ,Nickelback ,No Doubt,Phil Collins ,O.A.R. ,Oasis ,The Offspring ,One Republic ,Paramore ,Papa Roach,Portishead ,The Postal Service ,Sia ,Prodigy ,The Rakes ,Regina Spektor ,Rilo Kiley,Secondhand Serenade ,Snow Patrol ,Stanid ,Sugarcult ,Switchfoot ,System of a Down,Taking Back Sunday,Three Days Grace ,Tegan and Sara ,Meg and Dia ,Third Eye Blind,The Ting Tings,Vertical Horizon,30 Seconds to Mars,311

And more that I cant remember right now.More later.

Wrong Time.Wrong Place.

I feel out of place so much of the time.Alone.But not lonely.Most of the time.Solitude is sweet to me, unlike to so many others.Alone is not so bad.But I suppose most don't like being by themselves.Which I don't understand.I'm happy, don't get me wrong.Just feel like sometimes I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time.There are times when i'm really happy.When i'm with my family and friends, but as well as alone.When i'm reading.I love reading.Writing;mostly poetry.Listening to music.Taking pictures.And laughing.I love laughing.A huge thanks to Diana and Janie.I love you both.You two make me laugh more then anyone.Laugh till i'm crying and can't breath.lol.More later than.


Likes: Music, books, family, friends, chocolate, poetry, writing, photography, reading, art, sleeping, eating, hanging out, green beans, Twilight Series, cats, Cookies and Cream ice cream, dogs, Edward Cullen!, solitude, love, etc.

Dislikes: Drama, drugs, alcohol, being sad, lies, can't think of much right now, etc.